Last week’s weight: 156lbs
This week’s weight: 157.6lbs
I walked into weigh in today without high expectations. Actually, I considered skipping it all together. It’s that wonderful time of the month again where I want to eat my face off, and truth be told, I pretty much did. For the first time since starting Weight Watchers (vacation week aside), I used all of my weekly allowance points and dug right on into those activity points. And as an added bonus, I did a less than adequate job tracking this week. Thankfully, it was a good week for activity points – clocking in at 24. However, after I weighed in, I realized that my expectations were actually a little higher than my results. I definitely wasn’t expecting a big loss, or a loss at all really, but I certainly wasn’t a 1.6lb gain – maybe a small gain, half a pound or so, but definitely not 1.6lbs. For the first time since joining Weight Watchers, I was actually disappointed with myself. It wasn’t the gain that disappointed me so much as the reasons I gained.
This past week was actually kind of a disaster. I didn’t meal plan or grocery shop over the weekend which left me floundering for meals and running to the grocery store most days of the week. It also had me eating lunches out. There were more dinners out, convenience meals, and more processed foods than I typically eat. I also let my ridiculous PMS cravings run rampant. I definitely could have found better ways to keep those at bay. (Two Snickers bars and a bag of Goldfish crackers over a course of two days is NOT the way to go.) I know I can drop those 1.6lbs because I’ve done it before. However after last night’s meeting and some self-reflection, I’ve realized how crucial this 1.6lbs, and the next 2.8lbs actually is for me.
Last night’s meeting was about plateaus, and while I’m not in a plateau per se, the information was actually really applicable to me. We talked about how plateaus are normal, but often times they aren’t actually “true” plateaus. The weight loss halts because you’ve loosened up. You’re not tracking as diligently. You’re estimating portion sizes more. You’re over estimating your activity points. You’re sticking to the program, but not as closely as you did in the beginning.
Where I’m at now, is pretty much my lowest weight since sometime in college. This is the point I got to in 2009 before I started to relax my tracking. This is also, on some subconscious level, the point where I start to self-sabotage. This is the point where I start to slack. This is the point where I decide I’ve done enough and can loosen up. 156lbs isn’t a bad weight for me – it’s not ideal, but it’s far better than pushing 200lbs – but it’s not my goal. Last week, I talked about how my driving force is to be able to say I accomplished this: that I set a goal, busted my ass, and achieved it. This is why I am most disappointed in myself this week.
I’m going to break through this mental block I seem to have when it comes to getting past 155lbs. I mentioned above the next 2.8lbs being really critical for me, but I didn’t mention why. 2.8lbs puts me at 154.8. This not only marks 10lbs lost since starting Weight Watchers, but it also marks my lowest weight since I began my weight loss journey in January 2009. And it’s less than 15lbs from my goal.
So, this coming week, my goal is to tighten things back up. I’m going to be diligently tracking all on my eats, pen and paper style, on my little Weight Watchers tracker thing. I’m going to make sure I’m accurately calculating portion sizes (which includes buying a new battery for my food scale.) I’d love to be able to be at 154.8lbs by next week. I definitely think it’s possible, but I’m going to “keep it real” and give myself two weeks.
Also, starting next week, I’m going to combine Weight Watchers Wednesday with the ever popular What I Ate Wednesday. I figured it will be a great way to help keep me on track, and show all of you how I spend my points!