I’ve been in a serious funk lately. I don’t know if it’s the never.ending.winter. or what, but I can’t seem to keep a grasp on my motivation. It’s lurking right below the surface, but I can’t seem to get it to bubble up. It’s an odd through the looking glass situation.
I also haven’t been making much effort either though. I just keep putting it off. I tell myself I’m going to get up early and work out, and instead of just fucking doing it, I make an excuse and tell myself I’ll do it after work. Then when I get home from work, and I fine an excuse and tell myself I’ll do it in the morning. And it’s not just work-outs either, I’ve taken a sort of ‘meh’ attitude to everything the last couple. I would sit down to blog and have nothing I felt was worth saying (though I have been blogging about wedding planning over on the private forums at Offbeat Bride .) I’d open Twitter, get overwhelmed by the number of unread tweets, mark them all as read and close it. I couldn’t tell you the last time I looked at my feed reader.
Maybe it’s the extra brutal winter and my usual plummet into not quite, but almost maybe legitimate depression. Maybe it’s some sort of self-sabotage. I don’t know, and at this point I don’t think I care. At this point I just need to start taking action. I need to start re-engaging myself. I need to start using my blog and my social media and my people to keep me accountable. I need to get back to setting goals and giving a crap about those goals.
So April goals then.
- Half Marathon training – I mentioned on Twitter I signed up for a half marathon on May 4th. This was one of the half a dozen nice-ish days I was delusional enough to think twinter wasn’t going to extend in to April. Then it did. I haven’t done much training. My fitness levels are fine so I’m not worried about that aspect, but I am worried about injurying myself because my body isn’t used to running. TL;DR version, I need to spend the next month taking training seriously so I don’t bust my shit.
- Plank-a-Day – and share it on social media to keep my in check.
- Lose 5lbs. I spotted making specific weight loss goals a while ago, but I feel like in order to start taking it seriously again and actually get to my goal, I need to start setting very specific goals with specific time frames.
- Stay engaged on the blog and social media – I haven’t quite formulated a plan on this one. I might go back to weekly weigh-ins and/ or workout summaries. I might do more Instagram check-ins. I’m working on this still. If you notice me falling off the face of the internet, feel free to poke me in the eye. Oh, and if you’re not already following me…now would be the time to get on that! Twitter, Instagram, Facebook, MyFitnessPal, Runkeeper