So I missed my meeting/ weigh in last week because of our mini-vacation to Cedar Point/ Michigan so no post last week.
Last week: 157.8lbs
This week: 160.8lbs
Change: + 3lbs
So, I was really, really unhappy with last night’s weigh in. Now, I think the three-pound gain can probably be chalked up to water weight from the weekends in Michigan, but honestly, that doesn’t make much of a difference to me right now. As I was inputting my weight, I realized I’m a mere four pounds from where I started a year ago. I’m also ten pounds up from my lowest back in February. It’s hard to nail down my exact emotions with regard to this realization. I’m not angry – though maybe I should be. I’m not disappointed – though, again, maybe I should be. I’m not even really upset about it. More than anything it’s eye-opening and motivating. It’s proof that I’ve been slacking, and that is unacceptable. It’s a kick in the ass to get my shit together again. This week
I’ve set some very basic and hardline goals.
- Track 7/7 days
- Eat at least 5 servings of fruits and veggies daily
- Three workouts (Today, Saturday and Monday)
- Drink at least 100 oz of water daily.
If I achieve all 4 goals, at 100% success, I’m going to buy a copy of The Bloggess new book Let’s Pretend this Never Happened. I have a hard time finding rewards that I want enough to really motivate my self-discipline, but I REALLY want this book.
That’s it for this week. Short and sweet. See you next Wednesday!
I have to say, I’m surprised you are not feeling more emotion when it comes to this weigh in. Given the realization you had a few months ago about how you sometimes don’t let yourself feel the feelings you should have, I would think this would have hit you a little harder.
But either way, it sounds like you have a plan to get back in the groove (which is SO hard and I’m also struggling with right now). So, good luck!
Yeah, I think part of me is surprised I didn’t feel more emotions about it too – or more specifically more negative emotions. I definitely felt emotional about it; I just don’t really know what to call the emotions: acceptance? awakening? facing the music? a kick in the pants? Ultimately I feel like my emotions were more positive/ productive emotions than negative (which I suppose can still be productive depending on how you use them.)
Yes, I was a disappointed at weigh in – particularly because I truly wasn’t expecting that kind of gain – but really my immediate reaction wasn’t to get angry or upset about it. My first thought were “Well that sucks. This isn’t okay. I’m not doing what I need to be doing to progress, and what I am doing really isn’t cutting it. It’s time for things to change starting right now.”
Ultimately though, I do actually feel like I’m embracing the emotions from weigh in though.
…if any of that makes any sense at all…
No.
it doesnt
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